June 30th, 2010

10 days away…well to be exact it is It is 10 days, 4 hours, 32 minutes until Saturday, July 10, 2010. That’s the big day, the wedding, the exciting time where life with Alex begins. I think sometimes I am still in shock about it all. I mean when I look around, it is all normal and right. No one is surprised we are getting married, everything is running smoothly and things are ready to happen. Everyone has embraced this and is very excited with no hesitancy. Sometimes I want to stop and just think that this is truly too good to be true. Something will go wrong and this will stink, right? WRONG.

I think when you allow God to be active in your life and the center of why you do what you do, things can seem too good to be true. We shouldn’t be discouraged about this but encouraged. We know that life will have its ups and downs, its valleys and the mountains. Right now, I’m in the mountains. Life is great, exciting, and there is so much to look forward to. I am looking forward to the last days before the wedding. I am looking forward to the preparation, decorating, and celebrating. I am looking forward to getting ready, walking down the aisle, and being carried away by my prince charming. I am looking to escape from the world for a week to be with the only person in the world who knows me in and out and who I love so much. These are all things that make this time of my life a mountain top experience.

I think that it can be hard right now because it is so busy and there are things that I wish I could make time to do…Like blogging, for instance. I also like to read, run, play soccer, and bike etc. Unfortunately, that hasn’t been happening either! I know that my plate will get to be more full as the days go on, but I also know that if I play my cards right I can have a life of responsibility and enjoyment. Marriage doesn’t mean the fun ends….rather, marriage means the fun multiplies. I am looking forward to the fun!

Probably the other thing that I am looking forward to after getting married, as lame as this is, is routine in life. I feel like my schedule has been out of whack since May with all the changes that happened. I can’t wait to get into a routine of things and get back to being able to relax more because things are in place and how they should be. But no worries, just because things are different than normal doesn’t mean that you can’t enjoy it. I keep reminding myself that is a season of life like no other before and I want to enjoy it and know that it will be gone soon….

My Beloved

I love this Kari Jobe song and I have been thinking about God's perspective on it and how he would sing this to us...


You're My Beloved
You're My Bride
To sing over you is My delight
Come away with Me My love

You're Beautiful to Me ,So beautiful to Me
Under My mercy come and wait
Till we are standing face to face
I see no stain on you my child

I sing over you My song of peace
Cast all your *cares* down at My feet
Come and find your rest in Me

I'll breathe My life inside of you
I'll bear you up on eagle's wings
And hide you in the shadow of My strength
I'll take you to My quiet waters
I'll restore your soul
Come rest in Me and be made whole

You're My beloved
You're My Bride
To sing over you is my delight
Come away with me my love

A house be not clean if dust lay upon the floor in a pile
Nor be a conscience if sin forgotten with just a smile
But lay that sin upon the Cross both today and tomrrow
And your soul will be healed of all uncureable sorrow

Though a house be still filthy is the dust thrown out
For there still lingers the cobwebs without a doubt
Although the conscience be clean the memories remain
Grace and Mercy through confession thy soul shall obtain

Extenuate my multiple sins I do not dare to do
Nor if to fall seventy times a minute I have not a clue
As to the weight of my sin alone that was put upon You
Not even to think of all the sin that was washed for life anew