"God will never leave you empty. If something is taken away, He will replace it with something better. If He denies your request in a certain area, its because He wishes to give you what is best. If He asks you to put something down, its so you can pick up something greater."

-Roy Lessin

I'm so bored of little gods, while standing on the edge of something large.
While standing here, so close to you, we could be consumed.
What a glorious day

I give up, I lay down
Rest my face upon this ground
Lift my eyes to Your sky
Rid my heart of all I hide

So sweet this surrender...

bah. ha. i'm sure God is laughing at me. This morning I was such a crank trying to get out of bed. I probably looked ridiculous fighting the covers off... but I prayed for a while and told myself to just make it through the morning with the kids and have the best attitude I could..and victory is mine! I made it and everything went great. now its 9 and I've got a full day ahead filled with work, gonna hit the gym, and get some college work done. This weekend I was reminded how small I am compared to God and how unworthy I am of His love. At church I was just thinking of all that God is and how glorious He is...and I had one of those, "wow...who am I to even deserve this?" moments. I have so many flaws and imperfections, but He loves me despite that and is helping me become better! Thank You God! I am so grateful to be signifcant in his eyes...or as the bible says, his "treasured possession." I am nothing without Jesus thats for sure and I want the world today to see how awesome He is. I've got people all around that are starving for purpose and true love..and they are looking for it in all the wrong places. I have the answer in Christ so I gotta share!

now off to spend one on one time with Jesus. I'm so in love with Him. I'm taking this journey of life one day at a time, making the most of everyday. Nothing else is worth living for but Jesus Christ! FGG

honestly...

...this past week has been a blur. i guess its sort of a good thing cause you know what they say, " time flies when youre having fun!" and i did have fun. lots of relational activities this week with family and friends.

i realized though something about myself this week, something that isn't a good thing:

i am really unproductive when i sleep in, even just for a little bit.

I used to be able to sleep in til noon, then get up and get lots of work done and have a full speed ahead night with productivity. I think that i've lost that niche. After this week, I've realized that I've got so accustomed to waking up early that when I get the luxury to sleep in...the whole day is shot. I stay in bed all day and have zero motivation. For example, this week i struggled with this because of spring break. I didn't have to get up at 6! But I had such a hard time getting out of bed. I would just lay there, hitting the alarm clock over and over again even though i had a ton of things to do. So what I decided is that I have to get out of bed by 9...otherwise, I will lay around all day and DO NOTHING!

so long sleeping in...unless i'm on vacation :)

sunny days.

its amazing what the sun will do to ya.. for instance, today at work, it seemed that most everyone had a new glow about them. I clocked in this morning as usual when my coworker Dave, as usual, asked me how i was doing. I replied with my normal "good, what about you." He replied back in the same manner (the typical morning greeting). we have an hour before we open that we set up the restaurant and usually in that one hour, conversation is minimal. Most people are trying to wake up, get everything ready, and "put on their game faces" as my boss would like to say. But today ended up being different and i'm convinced its because of the weather. After my normal clocking in experience, I stepped back into the kitchen only to say, "how can you not being having a good day with this gorgeous weather!?" Everyone agreed. the weather can be just a picker upper when it is as beautiful as it was today.

I will enjoy this weather. Not take it for granted! Windows down, jamming out. Going for a walk, and try to fit in a game or two of soccer tomorrow. I'm off now to babysit the little olsen kids and tonight i'm bringing along jordan, another girl I babysit who is 10. I'm bringing her along so i can teacher her some things about babysitting so that when she gets older she can do it. I pray that i can make an impact in her life and she will see how awesome God is tonight through the time we spend together. Adios!

i want to lay in a field, look up at the stars, and admire God's creativity.

summer please get here quickly.

discovering.

acoustic music and writing is a great combination. i could hang out in a coffee house all day long...reading books, sippin on a cappuccino, writing and thinking about life. i also enjoy a day out in the park, playing soccer, getting all sweaty, and being competitive. its weird how i find myself so satisfied and entertained in both environments even though they are drastically different. But i must take time to both: writing and working out. One without the other in life is out of balance. i must have my time to think and write...a form of expression. but i also must have relational time with others or even getting a good workout to keep the endorphins flowing. both are important for my emotional well-being. this is all apart of my design and the way god created me...interesting.