No one likes baggage...especially on planes.
The airlines charge extra and people go crazy trying to fit everything into their carry on so they can store in the overhead compartment...resulting in angry flight attendants who get conked in the head trying to fit it up there. Then you have the people walking in the airport with their baggage. They drag it along, bumping people, and running little children over. I don't like baggage. On my last flight, it was so awesome to just have a purse with me and that is it. Traveling with baggage is such a pain.
Baggage also stinks in relationships...but everyone has it. Ya know, the stuff that you wish you didnt do but you did and thus you were who you didn't want to be? It's that stuff that you have to share with someone that you wish you could never speak of again. No matter who you are or where you came from, you have baggage. Lots of junk that shouldn't be there. I wish I didn't have the baggage I have. It wasn't fun in courtship when I had to share that baggage...but I am grateful that by God's grace my baggage wasn't as big as what it could have been. We all have baggage.
But lately I have felt like when I meet with God in my quiet time, I am always bringing along this baggage. It is the stuff that I keep bringing up OVER and OVER again...and it is the stuff that I still a crappy Christian with. I come to God and ask Him to help me over and over again for the same things, even though a lot of the change is dependent on me. I don't like coming to God with baggage that I am still holding on to. I guess God doesn't mind the baggage as long as we are able to give it over to him...then we can be relieved we just get to carry the purse around :) Anyways, I just thought of this analogy while eating my lunch at work. I guess I'm tired of approaching God with the same baggage that He forgave me for a long time ago and is still waiting for me to give over to Him. I don't like feeling like I did this morning when I spent time with God and I felt like I had to "catch up" with Him. It was almost as if I was saying, "Where do I start?" I don't like this. I want to be constantly sharing my life with God so this whole baggage thing doesn't build up with Him.
These are some thoughts today...Eh, what a weird day it has been....
