Joyful.

It's interesting the difference in what we perceive to be true and what actually is reality. I find myself going back and forth with thoughts of "what would it be like if...?" or "someday it will be like this...." And I have this big picture in my head of what it will look like, how it will feel, and how awesome it will be! I had that about marriage. I had a dream of what it would look like and how pleasing to God it would be. That was one of my passions in singleness: Grow and mature so that if God wants me to get married, I will be ready. I was so determined to do "marriage" the right way and it was such a healthy thing. I gave myself to God, trusted Him with the outcome, and lived life the best I could to please Him. I look back now and see the depths of his faithfulness, grace, and direction in my life. I see the deep maturity I developed that my friend's were missing out on. I see now that God was using that season in my life to prepare me for the season I am in now...and I must say: This season rocks! What I perceived...is actually true!

I find myself this morning completely full of joy. It is the joy that is deep down in side that is not circumstantial. (I know this because I have a killer stomach-ache right now but I still find such a peace in my heart!) I feel so grateful, so thankful where God has placed me. He has poured out tremendous grace on me! I was telling a friend I haven't talked to in months that I feel like this time in my life is exactly right. This is what it was meant to be and I have no doubt that I am right where I should be. It's like this season is how it should have always been! I've struggled with contentment and I see that God is walking with me and helping me through it. He is faithful!

...well that is all I have time for now. Thank you to person who put me on hold for 14 minutes so I could type this up :)

Best Valentine's Day Gift!

It was a great evening...dinner made by my husband with a few surprises too ;) He is too good to be true. AND...he gave me this wonderful gift: http://www.impactyouthkc.com/blog/